My mind is spinning

I sometimes hate my mind. I have days where I just can't sleep .... all because I get a ton of ideas running through my head. I have thoughts of trying to make my life just a little simpler ... have thoughts of making just a little extra money ... have thoughts of how to be just that mom that my children want and deserve. I ENJOY cooking, I always have. I am now taking that love for cooking and am now working to stock our freezer and pantry so that we will buy less processed food. This food will be that much healthier for us but more importantly ... when we are craving pizza, we don't have to drop $20 that we don't have on it. The first big step we have done was throw out ALL fast food coupons. We have changed our diet enough that now almost all fast food makes our insides just absolutely hate us. I am not saying that the food doesn't still SOUND good ... we just know better now!


The funny part though to my life, is that I suddenly enjoy being domestic! My mother made it a BIG deal to learn to sew when we were younger. She wanted to make sure we KNEW how to be domestic for when we left the house for college and beyond. I HATED it. I am not even sure if that is strong enough. It is just amazing what having children does to your desires. I have never been very girlie or into pink. With 2 girls, I now enjoy sewing, want to learn crochet, and have a LOT of pink in my house. What's funnier is that *I* purchased that pink stuff willingly ... and sometimes without my daughters being present!

I guess what I have learned over the last 9 years is that, never say you don't like something. Never get to that point where you refuse to believe you are capable of being that person. I am so glad that my mother made me learn. I am so glad that she made me a person who continues to drive to learn more and teach my children the same thing. I am glad I married a man who supports my whims and pushes me to dive into my desires. I know that I don't always make the right choices or say the right things .... but I am glad that I have people that stick around and help me keep on the right and keep that end goal in sight. People come and go in life ... but there are several that I am glad they choose to stick around through thick and thin, the good and the bad  .... and offer advice and support ... mostly support!

So here is to a new direction in my life, let's see if I can't pull it off. It sure will be fun!